CROW MOTHER

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Author: Linda Rodriguez
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Pedestal Magazine

CROW MOTHER

(for Frida Kahlo)

They have a memory for faces, my pretty birds.

They are believers in vengeance.

Forgiveness is not in their DNA.

My shiny black sweethearts

will eat out the hearts of those who harm them

one day.

This is why I love them so.

They are like me

in their smart fierceness,

their desire for payback.

We who have been hurt

part our shiny black hair

down the middle,

tuck in a flower or two,

pull on layers of bright fabric

for camouflage,

and sharpen our talons and beaks

in anticipation.

I will curve my claws into paintbrushes

and carve my revenge into the souls

of those who wrong me.

I abstain from forgiveness

of grave accidents. Neither Diego nor God

shall escape me.

This is why I live on

when they are dead.

We recognize the human in the crow

and the caw at the base

of every human throat.

Come, my black beauties!

I’ve lost my wings, but you

can stab me with your beaks,

hundreds of you,

and hold me in the air

above life’s afflictions.

Don’t fear the pain you’ll inflict.

It won’t be the first time I’ve suffered

the death of unos quantos piquetitos.

I hadn’t planned on living eternally

in that cursed America, alive

on every bottle and tchotchke,

photoshopped onto muscular bodies

in jockey shorts, the U.S.’s favorite saleswoman.

But no one knows who Diego is any longer,

except as the bastard who drove me mad.

Pierce me, my sweet little carrion eaters,

and lift me into eternal life in a cloud of bloody revenge.



Linda Rodriguez’s Skeet Bannion mystery novels, Every Hidden Fear, Every Broken Trust, and Every Last Secret, and books of poetry, Skin Hunger and Heart’s Migration, have received many awards, such as St. Martin’s/Malice Domestic Best First Novel, Latina Book Club Best Books 2014, Midwest Voices & Visions Award, Thorpe Menn Award, Ragdale and Macondo fellowships, among others. She is Chair of the AWP Indigenous/ Aboriginal American Writers Caucus.



 


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